An Edit

So as the days tick by, and I get closer and closer to 21, which can just symbolize thirty for the people in my family, and seeing as how my great grandfather just died a few days ago, I find myself wanting to leave something behind.
Sure I'll probably leave more of a lasting impression on those who've actually met me, but I really want to leave my legacy behind in words and images. We'll always have the internet, from here on out, so my face will be remembered by future robot aliens some thousand years from now, and they'll worship Baddreamspray, but that's not a true and full impression of who I am, who I was.
Its also a truth that peoples' memories can bend and warp what really happened, or even worse, erase and forget the past, as we've all seen the once perfect, Elizabeth do. It still stings to think of such depressing issues, and that's just the thing with me, perhaps us all even. When things are at their worst I find myself looking to the past and asking myself, why?
How did I get here?
What went wrong?
Its often a struggle for me to look to the future, such an intangible place, and become happy.
I should be looking toward the past, to all the good and happy things and using those, not the depressing ones, to form my future, better yet, form my present.
Which is why I've decided, rather than begin several new stories and picking the best one out of those to be published, I should just take an old one and perfect it. The hardest part is accomplished, the actual writing! Now I have to spend hours slaving and editing it, throwing stuff away and revising things.
Why?
Because my mother still thinks I don't cuss, because my father doesn't know just how far my imagination can go. They still look at me as a child, but when they were my age, they had two kids!
Some redemption should be brought to our name, some type of acknowledgment. Romero should be more than a name synonymous with zombies (not that I mind).
So all of my devoted readers; which story (that's completed) should I pursue in getting published by HEAVILY editing, I cringe re-reading my own work. That needs to change.
So please, leave me some comments, so I know you're all still out there.
I love you all, be safe.

-Sir Jestro